September 12, 2013
Do you often fail miserably? Say the wrong thing? Think wrong thoughts? React loudly when you ought to respond quietly?
And then you're wrought with tears over your failure, bringing you to gut wrenching prayers like
"God, I'm so sorry. Please change me. Please forgive me. I need you. I don't know what to do."
For the next time (and there will be a next time), may I offer you some advice?
Next time, instead of beating yourself up. Pleading with God to change you. Shedding a million tears for the millionth time...
Will you please take a step back. Take a breather. And remember that you have a God who knows you. Understands you. He knows you fail. He knows you will continue to fail. He knows you are emotional. Irrational. Reactive. Explosive. And downright evil at times. He knows all of this.
And even so, He still loves you.
God knows your heart and knows your desire to live the way He desires. He knows you want to change. And He knows you love Him.
So the next time you fail, step into His love and grace like you step into a warm shower, and let it pour over you. And enjoy it fully like you would a warm shower. And let that--the fact that He knows you, understands you, and still loves you-- be the thing that brings tears to your eyes.